In my last post I wrote about how social media and celebrities make me feel insecure about myself. I promised you guys a positive post so here it is!
Since the last post was about body image, I want to write about that again.
For most of my life I hated the way that I looked. I would compare myself to my peers and the girls I saw in magazines because I never looked like them.
I have bright, curly, red hair and am pale with freckles primarily on my arms. I almost never saw other girls with red curly hair so it made me feel like I was the only one like this. I also started puberty earlier than a lot of my peers so my body had curves for days and massive boobs in 8th grade which made me feel so awkward.
It took me many, many, many years to create the person I wanted to look like. I grew out my hair which my mom had cut short when I was a kid, I started wearing makeup and tried hard to lose weight (which didn’t happen until I was 23).
I hated the way that I looked for so long that it crushed my self-confidence. I had little faith in myself because I hated what I saw when I looked in the mirror. I didn’t get the attention from boys that some of my friends got which made me jealous.
I hate to give my ex-boyfriend credit for anything (this guy is trash but I’ll give him this one positive) but he helped me feel more confident in myself. I had never been complimented the way he complimented me. It helped to open my eyes to see that I am a beautiful person.
Of course I still struggle with being positive about my body but I have more good days than bad days now at the age of 26. Going to therapy has helped a lot too because if your mind isn’t in the right place, you can’t see the goodness on the inside or outside. My therapist helped me to see my own beauty.
My confidence comes from inside myself. I no longer need the external compliments from others because I already know that I am a beautiful human.
Have you struggled with body image issues? If so, have you been able to overcome them? How did you do that or how do you hope to accomplish that?
I’m glad that it wasn’t until my mid 30s that I was put on meds that made me gain weight. By that stage of the game I was comfortable enough with myself and my body that the weight gain didn’t feel like too big a deal. If it had happened when I was younger and less sure of myself, though, it would’ve been really hard.
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Omg meds to make you gain weight as a teenager is the equivalent to the worst thing ever.
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