I was writing for another mental health blog and it somehow turned my thoughts around on a situation I’ve been experiencing.
Someone who was my best friend and I are no longer speaking, we are done. After two years of drama, we have unofficially ended things.
She was someone who did not respect my choices, did not support me when my mental health was at an all time low and tried to control me.
She told me that I needed to drop everything to follow a regiment that she created to “get my life and career on track.” This would have required me dumping my boyfriend, quitting my job and moving to a new city. By the end of it, she more or less said that I was a failure compared to our other mutual friends because of my life choices.
Since that conversation and her refusing to apologize for her actions, we have become more and more distant.
In the last few months, talking to her gave me serious anxiety. I was worried that she was going to call me a failure and that I need to change my life again. I hated talking to her because of that fear.
Then Ariana Grande dropped her single “Thank U, Next” and it empowered me.
As I’m reflecting on my ex-friend and I’s former friendship, I was sad and disappointed things didn’t work out. Now I’m saying, “thank u, next!”
This woman brought so much negativity into my life that I am happy to be saying thank you, next. The anxiety that she made me feel was not worth the broken pieces of the friendship that we once had and were trying to put back together.
Shit didn’t work out and now I am ready to move forward and beyond that failed friendship.
Thank u, next!