Hey everyone I hope you’re surviving the holiday season! I know that this can be a very difficult time for people. I am sending you all the positive energy my soul can muster!
Anyway, I’ve been at my new job for exactly 1 month. I have my good days and I have my bad days in regards to my social anxiety and depression.
Yesterday I sat alone in my office for over half the day. I could barely focus on my work so I did a lot of scrolling on my phone to pass the time.
But on the plus side one of my basement dwelling coworkers invited me to join his wife and others for a Dungeons and Dragons campaign! This is something I enjoy playing and am not afraid to share it with you all. If you haven’t judged me yet I think I can share this tidbit about myself.
Being in the basement allows me to hear the muffled conversations happening above me. I kept hearing my one coworker laugh and felt two ways at once: I wanted to be up there laughing too but also I wanted to curl up and hide. It’s challenging to find a balance of sitting alone doing my work and being social with my coworkers.
I wish all of this was easier for me.
We have a holiday party on Friday and I’m getting nervous about it. I’m worried if I’ll have anybody to talk to. At my last two jobs our holiday parties were always outside of the office. The newspaper sent us over to a hotel restaurant (the food is always bad) and my most recent job at the women’s shelter, we went out to dinner as well. We got to bring guests so I always had someone to speak with!
This time around I know it will be awkward. Maybe they’ll let me bring my dog in so then I’ll at least have some company. I can’t bring my two cats, they’re too evil to be out in public, hahaha!
How do you manage holiday work parties if you have social anxiety? Do you have any tricks that help you relax?
Hello megan ….I know exactly how you feel, because I started a new job back in september and I found it extremely difficult..I felt like I was isolated from my co workers..and I become so wary when I’am around them, after leaving my last job of 22 yrs I was really struggling…I kept getting emotional but I started to keep focused..on my own routine…then it came together slowly…I still have good days and bad days but I think hey oh…tomorrow will be a better day…take care..🙂
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I bet that was very challenging after being somewhere for 22 years! I get wheee you’re coming from about feeling isolated by coworkers. They all know one another and have their relationships sorted out unlike us new people. You’re very right that the next day can be better! Thank you so much for your comment!! I will check out your blog for sure!
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