Holy hell it has been a whirlwind of the past few days! I’m ready for a vacation from my weekend.
*Random side note: I think if I actually saw a whale I would cry. Like seriously, how beautiful is this photo?!?*
If you read this post and this post, you will know that I have really been struggling with my mental health because of PMS. Throughout last week but specifically this past weekend, everything felt like it was falling apart.
This afternoon I finally felt like I could breathe properly. Like I could finally swim up to the top and take a massive gasp of air.
The morning was total shit. When I’m on my period or PMSing, I get angry so easily which was the definition of my morning. I woke up angry, showered in anger, I was angry working at my side gig and finally when I got home, a sigh of relief.
I had lunch with my mom, took a nap and when I woke up, everything seemed better. I felt like the rocky waves were finally calming down.
I’ve been able to get some work done tonight for my side gig which really shows that I am getting back to my semi-normal self.
The mental strain of severe PMS makes everything in life the absolute worst. Since this past week was so bad, I really want to find out what I can do to help with these intense emotions.
When I was sad this weekend, I was sobbing. When I was sleepy, I laid in bed for 5 hours doing nothing. I barely had the energy to watch anything! You know it’s bad when the thought of looking at a screen for multiple minutes sounds exhausting.
I debated dipping into old habits just because I felt like nothing else would make me feel any better.
I even had a freaking panic attack! Somehow I was able to calm myself down very quickly which I am proud of myself for. I am lucky that I almost never get panic attacks so when they happen randomly, it’s confusing for me.
This isn’t normal at all. I should not be feeling such intense mental pain when I’m already taking an antidepressant. It’s not a wimpy one either!
I’m sure I’m not the only person out there really struggling with their mental health when they are PMSing or on their period. I am going to keep you all updated so that maybe somehow somebody reading this doesn’t feel so alone.
I see my therapist in a few days so hopefully she has some answers for me.
Be Alright 